To remain conscious to my unconscious
That was my goal
But once it’s a goal
The game is on
My unconscious will be
Nowhere in sight
Is it hiding? Who knows – it knows
I find it in a softening
Of body and soul
When I truly take a few moments
Of unscheduled time
And rest into that moment
And see what I find
I didn’t go looking
It just happened to appear
My unconscious longing
Full of sadness and fear
Am I good enough?
Do I matter?
The tears start to roll
I can see my insecurity
My vulnerable parts
They matter to me
And that is the start
Stay hidden
Stay doing
The mantra from past
The longing for beauty
For peace
And for love
Is clear
Like a sign from above
But how, might I ask,
Is one to find
The gifts of the spirit
Hidden so deep inside?
Through silence
And solitude
This is a clue
To remain conscious to my unconscious
Though that was the goal
The game was on me
I was never in charge
My wisest self knows
Exactly what I need
Just take time to listen
And you’ll know what I mean